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Remembrance

Posted on: December 25, 2008 10:47 pm
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For Mama & Daddy:

My heart is happy today, yet heavy with thoughts and memories of you. Mama smiling brighter than the lights on the christmas tree and her laughter filling the room to the top, Daddy's jokes starting the display. If you were here, I wonder what you would be doing or what you would say. I remember daddy carrying me to the tree on Christmas day - helping mama get ready to bake the pecan pies and being filled with all of the love my little heart could take. Thank you for loving me so much and for teaching me how to laugh and how to love. I miss you very much.

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Since: Nov 22, 2006
Posted on: January 25, 2009 7:39 pm
 

Remembrance

Bucky: I'm glad if my words help you out. I truly hope things are somewhat calm for your GF and her mother... I've been down that road and I know how heartbreaking it is.




Since: Aug 13, 2006
Posted on: January 24, 2009 7:18 am
 

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Christmas is always hard for me, but this year I especially wanted to share with mama the joy of meeting someone that makes my heart sing.I hear ya' Gala'!The holidays always do that and this Christmas the first one to melt was my dad. It was the 2nd year without my brother and FOR ME, it was a tad easier. See, there's 4 kid's now and I hold feelings in when around my parents because I know the other 3 don't when their around them so I try leveling it off although I know they think of him every hour because they've said so.

When we talked awhile back Gala' you told me you were around people during the holidays and that's the" ticket"

Like I said, time heals to a certain extent, but the bummer about that imo is, it heals in Gods time not ours,lol.Remember though ( what we went over before). No pain, no gain

Once again, it's been a delight talking with you and you help me out more than you imagine




Since: Nov 22, 2006
Posted on: January 23, 2009 9:35 pm
 

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Thanks Morgan & Bucky.

I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve, and though I miss my parents every day - Christmas is always hard for me, but this year I especially wanted to share with mama the joy of meeting someone that makes my heart sing.




Since: Aug 13, 2006
Posted on: January 23, 2009 4:14 pm
 

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She's deep in her thoughts and also in her heart.. I love reading what she say's, Morgan', because it's thought 's I get from time to time

here's the line that made me choke up& caused the reply's I gave:

Thank you for loving me so much and for teaching me how to laugh and how to love. I miss you very much.ain't it so true how parents that have been so "giving" all theiir lifes can instill those qualities in us and they never go away.. they might get hidden underneath for days, weeks or even years  but they are there always. Mine left for awhile when I choose a road of addiction but in the end it made me the guy I am today. I got to know who I REALLY was

Back to the parents- my mom gets a call each night and it ends with "I love ya"........ this is a quality moment that some day I won't have... I'll stop now... no reason to look into the future and get down .. later




Since: Jan 21, 2009
Posted on: January 23, 2009 8:32 am
 

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Beautifully Said Gala,

I can think of nothing to add, except that you brought tears to my eyes. An I imagine that will happen, whenever it read your words again.




Since: Nov 22, 2006
Posted on: January 21, 2009 11:05 pm
 

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Bucky, don't worry, I'm a tough girl! :)

Hopefully will be talking to the BF in a moment.. that always makes me smile. :)




Since: Aug 13, 2006
Posted on: January 21, 2009 8:00 pm
 

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well Gala', we just got off the phone with her... knwoing she's now hitting the last drive into life's turning citcle, she will have to become adjusted to making new friends, new scenery, new people halping her and most of all that thought in the back of her mind that "life is nearing it's end".... scary stuff ... guess my brother knew what it was all about when his last words to my mom were , "I'm scared mom".... death must be a trip especially if you know your knocking on heavens door and can see your last moments

I hope I didn't take you into aride of the past and if I did, I think it's us sharing that makes sadness heal .. no pain , no gain... I believe that with all my heart

Gala', you have a very peaceful night my friend, ok?




Since: Nov 22, 2006
Posted on: January 21, 2009 7:42 pm
 

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You are very welcome - I hope I helped at least a little... I also hope your GF's mom finds a little bit of peace soon and doesn't suffer so much. I've been there... its not easy. :(




Since: Aug 13, 2006
Posted on: January 21, 2009 7:31 pm
 

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thanks for the advice Gala'.. I guess it's been one of these wekks when all" hits home"... sometimes I think deeply about  things like what will happen with me when  or IF I ever become so old and I guess it's from hearing what my girls mom is now going thru as she is now entering that last phase of her life and going into a nursing home... I lonely life for someone when 3 of her 4 children are miles and miles away and only 1 kid will visit her.... as I write this I become so much more grateful for every day I have and for how lucky I am... didn't I tell ya a few days ago that jsut by a simple hi to someone on a message board turns into a good thing somewhere down the line that sometimes, we may never ever notice ? well, I have , and your posts I read always make me know that there's people that think alike and think with sincerity....




Since: Nov 22, 2006
Posted on: January 20, 2009 8:03 pm
 

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Have faith in yourself - as many of us do. You won't go back down that road because it isn't who you are. In the short time that I've known you, I've seen some amazing inner strength.

Several years ago - I had a very protective friend that told me I was one of the strongest people he knew, yet, i reminded him of a wounded little bird at times that refused to give up and kept insisiting that i fly... and he asked me one day.. what i would do if i fell... i told him that i would simply heal, while,  with his help, I mended my wings.

We all have our moments where we don't think we can make it - but still we press own.. i think deep down we know - we don't face that darkness that sometimes threatens to conusume us - alone



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